I hope he is a gentleman-
Why are all the good words wasted on people that we hate?
I'd be a hypocrit if I still didn't love you.
With 55% of my heart belonging in your arms
I learned what should make me hate you again.
I've got the long legs, but don't know how to use em
I've got the hair of a star, don't care to tease it
I'm not the girl you want
and I told you this from the start
Smooth words convinced me to give you a try
It might sound weird, but I haven't cryed
Nevertheless I hope that she was worth my broken heart
I can't tell a lie
The truth can't be denyed
I thought that you could be the one, to change everything
The first time we talked, you kissed me with your eyes
Don't stick around, please run away
You can dwell on your desition,
just don't expect me to stay
I told you everything from the start
I hope that she, was worth my broken heart.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
It's who we are
So there is this girl who is older than me, and always dishes out good advice. At one point in my life, I wanted to be her so badly, even though I hated her. I wanted to be with her boyfriend, because I was in love with him.
Looking back, why in the world would I want to be this girl? She even admits that she puts on a show for people, and that no one knows who she really is. When I walk into class everyday with a smile on my face, it's because I'm happy that I have something to look forward to. I realized that I couldn't let the world transform me, I had to transform the world. So I stopped talking to people who held be back and depressed me. I started listening to music that made me happy.
I've hit rockbottom in most stages of my life thus far. I've been turned down by love, life, and happiness. So I changed what made me happy by following the muscle that I had neglected. I think that sometimes we rely on our heart to take care of us so much, that we forget that we have to take care of it so that it can help us out more.
What an amazing life i have in store for myself.
annnd I got a meet and greet with All Time Low!!!! I can't wait! Who knows, maybe I'll fall in love that night!
also, i might be going to see my other boys! I might fall hardcore that night, if I haven't already. Stay tuned..
Looking back, why in the world would I want to be this girl? She even admits that she puts on a show for people, and that no one knows who she really is. When I walk into class everyday with a smile on my face, it's because I'm happy that I have something to look forward to. I realized that I couldn't let the world transform me, I had to transform the world. So I stopped talking to people who held be back and depressed me. I started listening to music that made me happy.
I've hit rockbottom in most stages of my life thus far. I've been turned down by love, life, and happiness. So I changed what made me happy by following the muscle that I had neglected. I think that sometimes we rely on our heart to take care of us so much, that we forget that we have to take care of it so that it can help us out more.
What an amazing life i have in store for myself.
annnd I got a meet and greet with All Time Low!!!! I can't wait! Who knows, maybe I'll fall in love that night!
also, i might be going to see my other boys! I might fall hardcore that night, if I haven't already. Stay tuned..
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
dates dates dates...
A few dates that I am looking forward to like whoah!
Nov 17- my final feature for news reporting is due, AND the new GK line comes out! just in time for me to send my list to Santa! I've been loving wearing Glamour Kills! It's comfy, cute, and fits me perfectly. at first I just wanted to wear the same clothing as my favorite artist, now maybe I'll be the one getting paid to rock GK some day!
Nov 30th - Glamour Kills tour!!!! with ALL TIME LOW!!! I am so excited! It'ss be myy 4th time this year seeing ATL. Theire shows never get old! I love the feeling of being sick before the show like I am nervous or something, and then getting there and just feeling so naturally high, I love it!
Another thing about dates..vital advice. Gentlemen, do not spend the entire time on a date, with your phone texting another girl. This happened to my friend. It made me second guess the feelings that I have for another rockstar. I know there is the perfect guy out there for me.
He will be everything good about a rockstar, and a good boy. He'll swing his guitar in that way that'll make my tummy turn. He'll flip his hair in that way that'll make my heart flip. He'll get attacked after a show during a signing by a million fangirls who will ask him to do everything from kissing him on the cheek for a picture, to asking him to father her kids...but then he'll come onto the tour bus with me. I'll smile because I'll knw that I am the only one he'll ever want that kind of attention from. I'll feel blessed to know this. He'll propose to me on stage after performing my favorite song. We'll get married at the House of Blues where we met. He'll never call me 'Marissa A------' because he'll know how much I hate my middle name. In return, I'll support his musical lifestyle. Whether he opens up for bands the rest of his life, or if he sells out arenas. this is my fairytale, and it'll happen someday...
Nov 17- my final feature for news reporting is due, AND the new GK line comes out! just in time for me to send my list to Santa! I've been loving wearing Glamour Kills! It's comfy, cute, and fits me perfectly. at first I just wanted to wear the same clothing as my favorite artist, now maybe I'll be the one getting paid to rock GK some day!
Nov 30th - Glamour Kills tour!!!! with ALL TIME LOW!!! I am so excited! It'ss be myy 4th time this year seeing ATL. Theire shows never get old! I love the feeling of being sick before the show like I am nervous or something, and then getting there and just feeling so naturally high, I love it!
Another thing about dates..vital advice. Gentlemen, do not spend the entire time on a date, with your phone texting another girl. This happened to my friend. It made me second guess the feelings that I have for another rockstar. I know there is the perfect guy out there for me.
He will be everything good about a rockstar, and a good boy. He'll swing his guitar in that way that'll make my tummy turn. He'll flip his hair in that way that'll make my heart flip. He'll get attacked after a show during a signing by a million fangirls who will ask him to do everything from kissing him on the cheek for a picture, to asking him to father her kids...but then he'll come onto the tour bus with me. I'll smile because I'll knw that I am the only one he'll ever want that kind of attention from. I'll feel blessed to know this. He'll propose to me on stage after performing my favorite song. We'll get married at the House of Blues where we met. He'll never call me 'Marissa A------' because he'll know how much I hate my middle name. In return, I'll support his musical lifestyle. Whether he opens up for bands the rest of his life, or if he sells out arenas. this is my fairytale, and it'll happen someday...
Saturday, October 31, 2009
It made me think
I saw the movie FAME a few weeks ago with my friend. It was okay. Not what i expected, and I was hopeing for a longer movie. There was just too much in it, and i don't feel as though they let the characters build their stories enough. It was just thrown out there. But that's not why I'm venting.
There was a scene where this ballet dancer was talking with his instructor or something. It was the end of his senior year. He always dreamed of being a famous dancer. He worked his butt off the entire time he was in this school. Harder than anyone else. He was being told that he wasn't good enough. That no matter how much he worked he could never be good enough. However, he would make a good instructor. The scene cut to him and his friends at a train station. I could all too perfectly see everything going through his mind. He feels lost. Like he had been lied to. Like he didn't know who he was. Like he had wasted time doing something that he could be no better than mediocre at. It looked as though he was going to commit suicide by jumping infront of a train. His friends pulled him back. I started crying like a baby during this scene, and my friend couldn't understand why.
I've been there, and seen what wanting something so bad can do to your brain. Thankfully I never went so far as to try to kill myself. But there was a point where I wanted to die. I wanted it so badly. My flute was my craft. It was all I knew for years. I practiced longer and harder than anyone else. But I wasn't good enough. No matter what I did, how I practiced, I couldn't have it. It wasn't fair. Why the hell was I here, if I couldn't be a band director, what the hell would I do with my life? I would lie in bed crying myself to sleep dreading my next practice. My next lesson. I hated it. I hated that life. So I got out of it. I pulled myself away from doing something I would one day regret.
I got a glimpse of this again. I was told that my news article wasn't good enough to get published. I didn't go into a slump though. It was concidered. I have my foot in the door, and one day I'll get through it. I love my new life more than anything.
I have something I didn't have the first time. People who want me to succeed. I have fans of my new craft. teachers that are willing to take me on as a challege to them If I can succeed as a writer, anyone can.
Dear Jesus, help me though this. Help me to pick myself up when I am down. Keep the feeling of 'why am i doing this?' away for forever. thank you. amen
There was a scene where this ballet dancer was talking with his instructor or something. It was the end of his senior year. He always dreamed of being a famous dancer. He worked his butt off the entire time he was in this school. Harder than anyone else. He was being told that he wasn't good enough. That no matter how much he worked he could never be good enough. However, he would make a good instructor. The scene cut to him and his friends at a train station. I could all too perfectly see everything going through his mind. He feels lost. Like he had been lied to. Like he didn't know who he was. Like he had wasted time doing something that he could be no better than mediocre at. It looked as though he was going to commit suicide by jumping infront of a train. His friends pulled him back. I started crying like a baby during this scene, and my friend couldn't understand why.
I've been there, and seen what wanting something so bad can do to your brain. Thankfully I never went so far as to try to kill myself. But there was a point where I wanted to die. I wanted it so badly. My flute was my craft. It was all I knew for years. I practiced longer and harder than anyone else. But I wasn't good enough. No matter what I did, how I practiced, I couldn't have it. It wasn't fair. Why the hell was I here, if I couldn't be a band director, what the hell would I do with my life? I would lie in bed crying myself to sleep dreading my next practice. My next lesson. I hated it. I hated that life. So I got out of it. I pulled myself away from doing something I would one day regret.
I got a glimpse of this again. I was told that my news article wasn't good enough to get published. I didn't go into a slump though. It was concidered. I have my foot in the door, and one day I'll get through it. I love my new life more than anything.
I have something I didn't have the first time. People who want me to succeed. I have fans of my new craft. teachers that are willing to take me on as a challege to them If I can succeed as a writer, anyone can.
Dear Jesus, help me though this. Help me to pick myself up when I am down. Keep the feeling of 'why am i doing this?' away for forever. thank you. amen
Thursday, October 8, 2009
New stuff...Rad stuff...stay tuned!
Hey readers! (all 2 of you!)
Well, I have some awesome announcements for you!
I have a new project comeing up with my friend Ashley. I don't wanna give away too much, just be prepared to be blown away once we get it going!
As I stated previously, I'm now a Street Team Leader for the band, Days Difference! It's been going great! I love talking to the girls every night about how we can improve the site and make it fun for the viewers. most of all, I love doing something that other people notice about a band that I love. Maybe it's that their sound is unlike anything i've ever heard, but in a different way than the other bands i love were different.(maybe i'm in love with one of the members...who knows!)
haha, well anyway, I've decided that I'm not going to update this with music stuff anymore. It was a good idea, and it got me started, and it raised a lot to my awareness. I didn't fail, I found something that didn't work out. Not to mention, I announce this stuff on my twitter all the time, and that's just easier to read because it limits me to 140 characters! Besides, if my newest project works out, I'll be doing this stuff on a more professional, regular basis. So I'm not quitting, just moving! and I'm excited!
I'm ready to take you're world by storm! Are you? haha!
Don't worry, I'll still write random things here!
Well, I have some awesome announcements for you!
I have a new project comeing up with my friend Ashley. I don't wanna give away too much, just be prepared to be blown away once we get it going!
As I stated previously, I'm now a Street Team Leader for the band, Days Difference! It's been going great! I love talking to the girls every night about how we can improve the site and make it fun for the viewers. most of all, I love doing something that other people notice about a band that I love. Maybe it's that their sound is unlike anything i've ever heard, but in a different way than the other bands i love were different.(maybe i'm in love with one of the members...who knows!)
haha, well anyway, I've decided that I'm not going to update this with music stuff anymore. It was a good idea, and it got me started, and it raised a lot to my awareness. I didn't fail, I found something that didn't work out. Not to mention, I announce this stuff on my twitter all the time, and that's just easier to read because it limits me to 140 characters! Besides, if my newest project works out, I'll be doing this stuff on a more professional, regular basis. So I'm not quitting, just moving! and I'm excited!
I'm ready to take you're world by storm! Are you? haha!
Don't worry, I'll still write random things here!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Busy Busy me
sorry I've been neglecting my own music blog. I've been busy like whoah! Don't worry, it's not just because of some stupid reason, like school! I've been made one of the Street Team Leaders for the band, Days Difference! Awesome, right? So I've been doing a lot of stuff for the fansite. It would mean the world to me if you guys would check out the fansite. I'm not a founder, I'm a co-web, but I talk to the girls every night and we're doing our best to make it a good site to inform the fans. It's kept me busier than ever, but I wouldn't have it any other way! http://www.daysdifferenceonline.com/
Also, I've decided that I'm going to start a video youtube blog. So look for that in the coming week. I'll probably film it either later on today, or tomorrow.
I've been getting asked this question a lot lately..."What ever happen to Panic! at the Disco? Don't you listen to them anymore?" ugg, ignorant people. Of course I do! Just because I listen to other bands doesn't mean I've stopping likeing them. The opportunity rose for me to be a Street Team Leader for a band that I see a lot of potential in, so I grabbed it! I love music of all kinds, bottom line. As much as I love Panic! at the Disco, they don't define my musical library. None of the bands I listen to do! Yes, they do have the biggest chapter so far in my book of music, but just a chapter, not the whole thing!
I love my life right now, and I'm gonna keep on keepin' on. I'm just putting one foot infront of the other, and praying that I get somewhere!
But yes, I promise I'll try to update this more often. I'll start off by saying that Days Difference's debut album is now available on iTUNES! and their merch store...go!
teehee, i had to edit this because i'm a goober! good thing i wanna be a reporter and not an editor! Thanks Ashley for point thing out, you're awesome!
Also, I've decided that I'm going to start a video youtube blog. So look for that in the coming week. I'll probably film it either later on today, or tomorrow.
I've been getting asked this question a lot lately..."What ever happen to Panic! at the Disco? Don't you listen to them anymore?" ugg, ignorant people. Of course I do! Just because I listen to other bands doesn't mean I've stopping likeing them. The opportunity rose for me to be a Street Team Leader for a band that I see a lot of potential in, so I grabbed it! I love music of all kinds, bottom line. As much as I love Panic! at the Disco, they don't define my musical library. None of the bands I listen to do! Yes, they do have the biggest chapter so far in my book of music, but just a chapter, not the whole thing!
I love my life right now, and I'm gonna keep on keepin' on. I'm just putting one foot infront of the other, and praying that I get somewhere!
But yes, I promise I'll try to update this more often. I'll start off by saying that Days Difference's debut album is now available on iTUNES! and their merch store...go!
teehee, i had to edit this because i'm a goober! good thing i wanna be a reporter and not an editor! Thanks Ashley for point thing out, you're awesome!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
OCTOBER CD PICKS
hey guys, I'm going to be adding to this list for sure, but I wanted to make sure I posted some of my CD picks for october just in case I don't get a chance to update later...
anyway my first pick is DAYS DIFFERENCE by Days Difference..haha, it's their debut album on their label, and it hits iTUNES on the 6th! I'm so proud of these guys, so please spread the word for them! More of their tour dates are coming soon!
my next pick is ON YOUR SIDE by A Rocket to the Moon! you can pick this up at any place that sells CDs, iTUNES, and if I'm not mistaken I believe that you can still pre-order it. (hint-sometimes if you pre-order it, you get it a day or two early!)
like i said, I'll be adding more, but these are my top two for sure! talk to you rad cats later!
anyway my first pick is DAYS DIFFERENCE by Days Difference..haha, it's their debut album on their label, and it hits iTUNES on the 6th! I'm so proud of these guys, so please spread the word for them! More of their tour dates are coming soon!
my next pick is ON YOUR SIDE by A Rocket to the Moon! you can pick this up at any place that sells CDs, iTUNES, and if I'm not mistaken I believe that you can still pre-order it. (hint-sometimes if you pre-order it, you get it a day or two early!)
like i said, I'll be adding more, but these are my top two for sure! talk to you rad cats later!
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