It's who we are

So there is this girl who is older than me, and always dishes out good advice. At one point in my life, I wanted to be her so badly, even though I hated her. I wanted to be with her boyfriend, because I was in love with him.
Looking back, why in the world would I want to be this girl? She even admits that she puts on a show for people, and that no one knows who she really is. When I walk into class everyday with a smile on my face, it's because I'm happy that I have something to look forward to. I realized that I couldn't let the world transform me, I had to transform the world. So I stopped talking to people who held be back and depressed me. I started listening to music that made me happy.
I've hit rockbottom in most stages of my life thus far. I've been turned down by love, life, and happiness. So I changed what made me happy by following the muscle that I had neglected. I think that sometimes we rely on our heart to take care of us so much, that we forget that we have to take care of it so that it can help us out more.
What an amazing life i have in store for myself.
annnd I got a meet and greet with All Time Low!!!! I can't wait! Who knows, maybe I'll fall in love that night!
also, i might be going to see my other boys! I might fall hardcore that night, if I haven't already. Stay tuned..

dates dates dates...

A few dates that I am looking forward to like whoah!
Nov 17- my final feature for news reporting is due, AND the new GK line comes out! just in time for me to send my list to Santa! I've been loving wearing Glamour Kills! It's comfy, cute, and fits me perfectly. at first I just wanted to wear the same clothing as my favorite artist, now maybe I'll be the one getting paid to rock GK some day!
Nov 30th - Glamour Kills tour!!!! with ALL TIME LOW!!! I am so excited! It'ss be myy 4th time this year seeing ATL. Theire shows never get old! I love the feeling of being sick before the show like I am nervous or something, and then getting there and just feeling so naturally high, I love it!
Another thing about dates..vital advice. Gentlemen, do not spend the entire time on a date, with your phone texting another girl. This happened to my friend. It made me second guess the feelings that I have for another rockstar. I know there is the perfect guy out there for me.
He will be everything good about a rockstar, and a good boy. He'll swing his guitar in that way that'll make my tummy turn. He'll flip his hair in that way that'll make my heart flip. He'll get attacked after a show during a signing by a million fangirls who will ask him to do everything from kissing him on the cheek for a picture, to asking him to father her kids...but then he'll come onto the tour bus with me. I'll smile because I'll knw that I am the only one he'll ever want that kind of attention from. I'll feel blessed to know this. He'll propose to me on stage after performing my favorite song. We'll get married at the House of Blues where we met. He'll never call me 'Marissa A------' because he'll know how much I hate my middle name. In return, I'll support his musical lifestyle. Whether he opens up for bands the rest of his life, or if he sells out arenas. this is my fairytale, and it'll happen someday...