Easy?

Ever have one of those moments when someone says something, and you realized that you made it a lot harder than it should have been? Well I had a major one of those today. This guy I sorta kinda think about all the time, stoped by at work and said hi to me today. Everytime I see him, my heart and stomach start boxing each other, I start shaking, and act like a total spaz! I asked my friend why this happens everytime, and she simply responded 'because you like him.' I've tried to hardcore get over him, and stop thinking about him, but it's not working. I've tried to forget about him, because he's everything I'm not. Our religeous and moral beliefs couldn't be more different, and if Edward Cullen was an asshole, I'm pretty sure he'd be this guy. He's so charming, and adorable, but sometimes talks to people like they are below him. But, he's always on my mind, and I can't help it. I really do like him, and I can't even say that we don't have a chance together. Maybe God wants me to fall for someone who hasn't found him yet, so that I might lead him to God. Maybe it can be like in 'A Walk to Remember' and he'll change he'll respect my morals for me. Maybe I just live in a fairy tale, and i'm just waiting to stumble into my prince. I've liked him for awhile, admitting it on and off, and I've had my heart, not broken, but crucio'ed, I guess. (Yay for Harry Potter reference!)
Why can't finding love just be like a cute and simple Disney song?
'I know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam.'
'They say that good things take time, but really great things happen in the blink of an eye' (yes, I just quoted Hannah Montana)
or an 80s retro pop song?
'I want you to want me'

Unfortunatly, this song hasn't been written about this type of longing...yet.
I just wish I knew what he thought about me, and I would be able to make desitions a bit easier.

'I will wear my broken heart proudly, since thou dids't break it.' -Emily Dickenson