this is an Off Blog...

Ugg, I'm really not feeling it today. I hate it when people have the world, but still expect everything. I hate school. I hate it when people can't return favors, and talk in circles. I hate it when people try to play the role of the victim, to make others feel sorry for them. I hate it when people say that they said something, and those words never left their mouth. Most of all, I hate it when people take away things from me that make me happy. Not physical objects, but just ideas, or thoughts. For example, I was suppose to take a huge trip, but through the stupidity of someone, this trip isn't going to happen. There were a few times when I was suppose to go to a few concerts, at the end of last year, and through lies and acts of cowardness, those didn't happen.
So since I'm tired of having this re-occuring sadness, I'm just going to do what I want, and let the chips fall where they may. There is a lot in this world that I LOVE, and miss. It's time that I think of myself and what best for me. Unfortunatly, there are a few things I want, that I can never have, and there is nothing I can do either way about it. But as far as those situations are concered, that what friends are for. But these days it seems that those are fading as well. So if I trust you, please don't eff it up, I can't handle another dissappointment for awhile!
I need to reinvent love for myself, before I can expect others to do it too.
"I've got troubled thoughts, and the self-esteem to match. What a catch." -Fall Out Boy