something everyone needs to hear

"Forgiveness isn't letting them off the hook. It's taking back from them what they took from you."

I heard this today, and it inspired me greatly. I love it when things happen that make me think, and thats definitely what this quote did for me. No matter if you forgive someone or not, they are going to have what they did to you on their conscience. So to forgive someone, is to take back your dignity, pride, and that little bit of yourself that was stolen. Forgiveness does more for you, than it will for someone else. Not forgiving someone will give them that power over you. That spot in your head will be consumed by hate, and a state of confusion. Don't let anyone else ever take a part of your life for you. Live your life for yourself, because that is the reason you were given this life. Everyone knows that in any handful of people, i'm more likely to hold a grudge than anyone else. It's been a part of me that i'm not proud of my entire life. I thought that I was hurting someone who hurt me by not forgiveing them. Guess what, I forgave someone who greatly hurt me more than anyone ever had. I feel happier, and like my life is mine, not theirs. Guess what else, they STILL feel like crap. I know that by holding a grudge, i'm not hurting anyone but myself. Not to say that I take joy in other peoples pain, but I do enjoy to see Karma at work.
From now on, I plan to FORGIVE and be FEARLESS.
I plan to live my life for myself, because if I live for anyone else, it's turning my life over to them.
That's not what God intended. He indended this life for me and only me. That's how I am special. That's how I am going to live.

make a fool of myself when you hang around

I keep saying how I can't wait
to be the girl in the pictures with you.
There's something different about how your goofy heart
your bubblegum laughter, with a sprig of mint
keeps me begging for more.
The heart of a child, with the looks of a rockstar,
dancing like a nerd round all the photographers.
Make me feel like i'm where i'm meant to be.
Make me feel like i can be the one whose lost in your music
with no regrets looking back.
Hold my hand, lead me through the crowd
let's get lost in stereo the only way we know how.
Show them how it's done, for kids like us.

I wanna be the one that he looks at
and says 'she's the one dancing like she's drunk
part of her charm is that she doesn't care!'
Throw the jewlery away, write me a song
Get rid of the keys, bust out the guitar

Transformers Review *SPOILER ALERT*

'Tranformers Revenge of the Fallen' was nothing short of action packed from the time I sat down in my chair, to the time that I was speeding on the highway with the idea that my mom's Aveo may be an autobot in disguise. We have our main human character, Sam, going off to college, however fate has a different plan for him. Sam wants nothing but a normal life for a little while, but the decepticons have something else in mind. Such as killing Optimus Prime, and taking over the sun, therefore destroying the earth. A Prime is the only autobot that can destroy the Fallen, regretfully we loose our main robot character while he fights a league of decepticons. Sam, his girlfriend McKayla, his roomate Leo, and our old friend guy from Sector Seven, start on a journey to find the matrix, which can bring back Optimus Prime.
Hopefully the viewer will be so caught up in the action that they won't care about the drawn out scenes. As amazing as the story is, and suberb the acting is, some sequences were drawn out and uneeded. The three hour long movie is intense, and not for the chain smoker.
Overall, Rissa gives 'Transformers' a 9.6 of 10. My initial reaction throughout the film was 'wow' and wasn't until the drive home that I realised the length of the film!

holy s-f batman!

Holy DRAMA fest those last few posts! Apologies for my girlish rants, but it needed to be done. The point that I was trying to make, is that I think guys make us way more complex than we are. Don't lie, don't play, don't be an asshole. I don't think those rules are too complex.
ANYWAY! REVIEW TIME!
Green Day's music video for 21 Guns needs to be called out. It's one of the more moving music videos i've seen in awhile. It will do good for younger bands to look up to them for their fearless composition. As a young band, Green Day was more famous for songs about getting high, and masturbation. As they are fathers, husbands, and fiances now, they are helping give voice to their younger listeners, and those who have been with them since I was born. In this video we are put into a house with the band playing, and a young couple caught in the emotion of blazing guns. The couple reflected the band's cover for their 2009 hit album '21st century breakdown.' Armstong's sad and moving eyes cry out for his generation, as well as the generation that looks up to him, to speak out. If we are going to take anything from Green Day, it's to not always take ourselves seriously, but know when to get serious.

dear typical male,

I don't blame you for finding another girl. I blame you for leading me on.
I don't blame you for protecting yourself. I blame you for not protecting me at the same time.
I don't blame you for making me feel special. I blame you for not meaning it.
I don't blame you for throwing hints my way. I blame you for thinking i would be so stupid to not figure it out.

Ladies, let us invest in an asshole radar gun...it'll save a lot of time, and feelings!

feel free to suggest otherwise

but upon being said this is how i translated these words...
'so i really do like you, blah blah blah, but the whole distance thing, blah blah blah' - well as hot as i think you are, i can't be in a relationship with you, mainly because i want someone at my every becking call. Your three hour drive would likely make me unintrested by the time you got here.

'I don't want it to seem like i was leading you on'- but i was just to fulfill my boyish needs to flirt with anything with boobs

'i don't want to be unfair to you to be commited to me when you would never see me'- i don't want you to be commited to me while i suck face with other concert girls. i'm taking the high road with you.

Here's what I have to say...i'm just going to quote all time low and say that Like a Weightless currency your words don't mean shit to me. They use to mean the world to me, but you've just proved your boy-ish species stupid yet again. Better men than you have tried to redeem yourselves, but don't look this way again. Your ego will be shot, and we wouldn't want that now, would we?
Ugg, why do people assume things...not even obvious things, but stupid things? Like why do people assume that just because you're in college, this mean that you're not a virgin? Sorry, gentlemen, but this status will not be changed until the ink is dryed on the marriage certificate. Deal with it, and if you can't, go find another girl.

oh oh oh how was i suppose to know?

Ugg, that's it! I'm sick of being taken for a fool. It takes more than a sweet talker to capture the heart of this girl. The worst part is that my best friend didn't tell me about this side of you in the first place. That's her burden to bear. Your burden to bear is that you decided to make me feel like the stars, as well as a few other girls. They can have you, because i'll never want you.
Ugg, I've stopped associating songs by bands I love with boys. Because then everytime i would listen to that song, i would do nothing but think of his ugly face.
I love how my best friend can tell me all this crap i hadn't known, knowing that it would tear me apart, and then go on with her life. I had to be there when she decided to cry her eyes out over a stupid boy, who i warned her about. Now if she thinks that calling and texting me will make anything better, seriously?! The proper thing to do would have been to warn me about this stupid flirt-machine in the first place. Thank God i got outta this before anyone got truly hurt. I'm more pissed off than hurt. Pissed off that i was lied to, and that you're doing the same thing so some other poor girls. I told him once that any girl who got rejected by him would be torn forever. Thankfully, I rejected you darlin!
Here's to a NEW life, and the one and only love of my life!
One day i'll have it all. A good career, rockstar husband, and a good laptop to write stuff.
Dear All Time Low,
Lovin the new songs!
Love,
Rissa

Curiosity killed nothing...

but it wrote a novel.

Since my lazy summer days have started, I've found myself in my favorite routine. Staying up all hours of the night writing, and watching all the movies i never get a chance to watch. On one note, most writers do their writing during a normal person's strange hours. Even the most popular writers of my day. Ms J.K. Rowling would write in a coffee shop while her child napped, and at night. The ever popular Stephanie Meyer would wake up from a dream and start writing. But this blog isn't about that. Just trying to boost my ego by comparing myself to successful writers...
No, this is about exploring my curiosity. Can we really predict how someone will change within a few years time? And should private and professional life be kept totally separate? Maybe I'm being selfish, but my curiosity was sparked when I decided to watch my Senior musical, 'Flop.' What a blessing it was to be apart of my school's Drama club. However, I was a dancer/chorus girl. Our director, Mr. Hitmar is one of the most amazing men I've ever had the pleassure to meet. He taught me way more than how to handle the stage. If not for the Drama club, I wouldn't know how to make a fool of myself without caring. I couldn't help but wonder why I was cast just as a chorus girl. I was so sure I would get a principal role. No matter what you say, in high school the principals think they are better, but I observed most of the talent in the chorus line.
Currently one of the principal characters, who use to be a very good friend of mine, got pregnant, and unfortunatly her baby girl passed away very shortly after birth of a rare heart disorder.
Another one of the principals, is a Stripper.
Looking back, at how they were both dancers, and looking at the outfits they wore in public, I wonder why so many, myself included, were shocked. But at the time they both seemed like innocent young women with some sass. Knowing that within two years they would have taken a turn for the worst, would Mr.H given them the roles which any of us chorus girls would have loved?
I remember that during a rehersal once, I did what the chorus was thought to do. Take up backround space, and let the principals shine. Mr.H wasn't into that, so he told us to push our way to the front, and shine a bit. So the rest of the rehersals, and performances I did just that. I pushed my way towards the front, however the rest of the chorus stayed in the back. Looking at the DVD at one point the spotlights are on me, and the five principals. After shows, I was approached by some of my fellow cast-mates parants. Complimented on pushed the principals out of the way, and for not wearing slutty black shorts during the dance numbers.
I guess that's why i was cast as a chorus girl, Mr.H knew I wouldn't be afraid to motivate my fellow chorus line, and I would show myself through my character. My character, like the rest of the chorus line, was a stuggling actor...
"Show biz we all should know, pop fizz we come and go. Pop quiz, think it's a hit? Sorry closed that's all that's it. Show biz we all should know, pop fizz we come and go." -FLOP

Here, Then, and Now

Cleaned out my room a little bit today...after you pick yourselves up you may ask 'What took you so long woman!?' well the simple answer to that is, I though i would have been long moved out of here by now. But since the economy sucks, looks like i'm stuck here for awhile.
Anyway, I found a lot of stuff. I found a really rad necklace i forgot i had. It's a boombox. I also found a lot of old pictures, and even Dream Street fanfics i wrote a long time ago! I threw away A LOT of shit! It felt good to get rid of so much shit that hold such bad memories! I got rid of all the reciepts with someones name on them..all the stickers from the shirts i bought from him...everything! at the time I thought it would be cute for us to look back on that stuff and be like 'Hey honey, see how much of a creeper i was!' but since there will never be an us, it's gone!
I got rid of a lot of pictures with my ex best friend. I know people say to never throw away pictures, but to be quite honest I just got pissed off when i saw them. I don't need unfriendly vibes in my life, so bye bye! Mainly because in these pictures, we were so happy, and looked like we would have been the old ladies causing rukkas in the nursing home. Now that I now it was all fake, why hold onto fake memories? I found a lot of good memories too. Overall, I'm ready to start fresh. Hang onto what gave me compassion and a lead, and to let go of all the bullshit that was holding me back!
Off to work in the AM kiddies!

Let's make a mess and start some rukkas

I'm starting to realize how often people talk out of their asses. Musicians, writers, construction workers, everyone really. For example, someone said to me when refering to a previous relationship, that when he said he loved her, she now thinks it was a lie. I raise the question of how you can lie about that, or not see through it when it is said? Then I realised, he was a writer. It's his job to spin words in a way that makes people around him feel emotions beyond their thinking. So it all worked out. He knew his strengths, and used them to his advantage. This all makes sense these days...puts 'Know your enemy' into perspective anyway! I want to be a good writer, not a good lier. I'm not going to use such a gift to hurt someone, and it pains me to see that someone did.
MY definition of writing- creating emotions, painting pictures useing nothing but words.
What do we have here? Me with a JACK BARAKAT guitar pic, that's what!

Run, Don't Walk

Lovin' the new Green Day CD! finally getting a chance to listen to all of it!
This makes me want All Time Low new Cd more and more.
Makes me want a new Panic at the Disco CD...now

"My Beating heart belongs to you" -GD Last Night on Earth. Beautiful song, present day beatles for sure!