Monday, June 8, 2009

Here, Then, and Now

Cleaned out my room a little bit today...after you pick yourselves up you may ask 'What took you so long woman!?' well the simple answer to that is, I though i would have been long moved out of here by now. But since the economy sucks, looks like i'm stuck here for awhile.
Anyway, I found a lot of stuff. I found a really rad necklace i forgot i had. It's a boombox. I also found a lot of old pictures, and even Dream Street fanfics i wrote a long time ago! I threw away A LOT of shit! It felt good to get rid of so much shit that hold such bad memories! I got rid of all the reciepts with someones name on them..all the stickers from the shirts i bought from him...everything! at the time I thought it would be cute for us to look back on that stuff and be like 'Hey honey, see how much of a creeper i was!' but since there will never be an us, it's gone!
I got rid of a lot of pictures with my ex best friend. I know people say to never throw away pictures, but to be quite honest I just got pissed off when i saw them. I don't need unfriendly vibes in my life, so bye bye! Mainly because in these pictures, we were so happy, and looked like we would have been the old ladies causing rukkas in the nursing home. Now that I now it was all fake, why hold onto fake memories? I found a lot of good memories too. Overall, I'm ready to start fresh. Hang onto what gave me compassion and a lead, and to let go of all the bullshit that was holding me back!
Off to work in the AM kiddies!

2 comments:

  1. jfc rissa...

    I did this exact same thing. Cleaned my room, threw away pictures of the ex boyfriend and the ex best friend....

    now we're cleaning twins.

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  2. HOLY CRAP! we are totally twins!

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